i remember my first time meeting you and thinking you didnt like me that much because you wouldnt talk to me. you wouldnt add me to your discord server because "your bitcoin wallet was in it"!! i still decided to get to know you more and speak to you more when i realized you were just insanely shy. our first date was watching paul blart and while i thought the humor was cringe, i thought it was especially adorable how you would always giggle at the dumbest things. i didnt pay much attention because i was drunk as shit because of the drinking game and i threw up but i still think of it fondly (dont let me have fireball again)

you always get so shy whenever you meet my friends and speak to them, it makes me want to protect you. i want to shrink you into a small person and keep you in my shirt pocket like that one episode of adventure time

youre amazing in so many ways and your determination is admirable, youre a nerd sometimes but i adore that about you. i enjoy spending all my time with you. i remember you telling me that you listened to my favorite bands to impress me and ive never had someone do that for me before. you make me feel special.

people have always viewed me as weird but you make me feel so comfortable with you. i like how we have similar interests and can talk for hours about random stuff while never getting bored of each other. i dont have to be someone else with you and i really appreciate that about you. you accept me even though im insanely pretentious and misanthropic at times. you support me in ways ive never had support. you make me happy and give me something to look forward to.

i particularly enjoy listening to you sleep, it brings me comfort knowing that youre alive and safe. sometimes you wake up and start saying stuff and my heart goes crazy. i feel like edward cullen sometimes but i cant help it ;-;

it's crazy that it's been a year!! i know im crazy sometimes and hard to deal with when things are strained but it means a lot that you've stayed with me. thank you. thank you for putting up with me watching twilight 4 times a month and jerma. thank you for always being there for me. thank you for giving me a chance and falling in love with me. i love you, more than anything. i cant wait for you to be with you forever.

ps if youre stalking me and you find this dont say anything or ill cry